As per 31:25 tradition, it’s time for me to reflect on the year. And man, did 2018 kick each and every one of us in the pants.
In times like, say, the entirety of 2018, it’s crucial for you to remind yourself to look at the positives. And it isn’t always easy. For me, 2018 was a year that had a lot of bad, bad things. 2018 was manipulation, show-ups, screaming in a Church because someone hurt me so badly that I couldn’t breathe, disappointment in people consistently promising change and letting me down time and time again, leaving everything and coming back a different person who didn’t feel like she belonged in her own city, and being led on by more people than I can count. 2018 was lies, 2018 was pain, 2018 ripped me apart into shreds.
But things that rip apart are put together better. 2018 was a year of learning, a year of intense wisdom, and a year of seeing the world for what it truly is. The world is a cold, evil, horrible place. But seeing things as they truly are provides us with the opportunity to cherish the smiles, the laughs, and the wins even more than before. 2018 was meeting two perfectly imperfect new friends who love me no matter what and always support me, 2018 was my first fashion show in downtown Cleveland at the age of 17 (!!!), 2018 was so many good memories and good experiences.
The pain and terror that was experienced by all of us in 2018 taught us to appreciate everything, it taught us that we deserve more. You deserve more than the awful things, you deserve more than the agony, and you deserve more than the lies and the defeat and the exhaustion. 2018 taught me, and I hope all of you, that for every bitter thing that happens, there is a positive thing, a lovely thing, a warm and hopeful thing. The choice is yours: do you focus on the bad and hold onto it? Or do you acknowledge what the bad taught you and take that lesson with you as you enjoy the exquisite things?
2018 hurt. It was suffering and agony, but it was also new experiences, wins, and little glimpses of wonder. They say that at the bottom, the only place to go is up. Here’s to 2019.